Confronting Internal Battles: Embracing Acceptance and Prioritizing Self-care
Feb 4, 2024 - 11:13amSummary: I went surfing this morning despite the windy and messy conditions, working through anger and a range of other emotions. While struggling in the turbulent water, I confronted my internal battles, asking why I was fighting with myself. Realizing that I can't control what others think and that it's important to prioritize what's good for me, I decided to go with the flow. Accepting this mindset, I recognized the importance of being able to say no, which felt unfamiliar yet necessary.Transcript: I went surfing this morning, trying to get a surf in before the conditions get, you know, really, really bad. And it was nice. It was a good, good little sash. It was really windy today and it was cross-shore winds. So it was messy out there. Definitely was working through a lot of anger and frustration and just a lot of emotions this morning. So many emotions when I was in the water. And I don't know, I guess it was just reflective of like how the ocean felt and being so turbulent and yeah, like, I felt like I was fighting myself. I'm like, why am I fighting myself? Fuck this. Like, I don't need to fight myself. Like being torn between two things and like, it just made my mental state really bad for like 30 minutes. And then like, kind of figured it out and I was like, you know what, like, just got to go with the flow. I can do whatever I want and how other people are going to think of me as something out of my control. And because of that, like, I just got to do what I like want to do. I don't need to do anything for someone else, especially if it's something that like, is not going to be good for me, you know, and that's okay. And I think just like accepting that and understanding that is, you know, going to be more and more important and being able to say no, and like, I think that was the thing is like, I said no. Yeah, I don't know, just feels weird.
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